Angry at 3am

So 6 weeks ago I posted about picking up the discipline of running in order to reach a 5k in October. I am happy to announce that last night I completed the 6th week of running. There was one week that I did have to skip running due to a few things, but otherwise I have stuck with it.

Last night however I was pretty much angry by the time that I made it home from my run. I seem to have hit a wall in increasing my distance and can't get past 1.6 miles. If I walk some then I can keep going, but I don't want to walk. I want to run, and I want to run 3.1 miles now!!! So it was just a really really frustrating run last night as I tried to increase my distance and couldn't.

Finally last night I laid down to go to sleep around midnight, but still found myself awake past 1:00am. Eventually I got up and fixed myself a snack and then tried going back to bed around 1:45. I finally fell asleep somewhere between 2:30 and 3:00 and was highly aggravated and angry. Racking up frustrations is not a way to get rest or start off a morning.

This morning I got up a little late and was 30 mins late to work (on top of the bad run and lack of sleep). Welcome bad mood for the day. (honestly I think it's all just hormones, there is no real reason for my extreme frustration and bad mood) I am now in my office with headphones in and somewhat avoiding people. It's pretty much been my method all day. It's hard when you work in ministry, but sometimes life (meaning hormones) just won't let you be in a good mood, and my way of fighting it is to just hide it. Otherwise I'm snappy and mean to folks. Trust me, one student found out the hard way this morning. Sorry!

Ohh frustrations. I'm thinking a nap, sushi, and a coffee date with God tonight is what I really need! Until then....