"I lift my eyes up to the hills"

I'm tired today. Exhausted in fact. This actually feels like its the normal thing so far this semester. I feel that most days and especially by the end of the week, I'm totally worn out.

This year I am overseeing four different areas of ministry within our Chi Alpha. (SLCC, iTeams, XA House, database/follow-up) The XA House is the only new thing that I picked up this year. And along with overseeing these things, I also help out a little with the women's ministry. And some days I feel that there is more and more that just keeps piling on.

Today was a long and tiring day and a little rough as I had to tackle a few unnecessary problems. As I was thinking about all of this and how tired I was earlier, I began to throw myself a bit of a pity party. In my head I was wondering why I had so much to do and so many different areas to be pulled in and have to help with other stuff to. And then the thought loudly rang out in my head "where is my help?!?"

Immediately God answered with Psalm 121:1-2 "I lift up my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD,the Maker of heaven and earth."

A few weeks ago I was having similar thoughts. And God convicted me then too. I have so many different areas because He has gifted me to handle them. He has given me the gift of administration to be able to organize and handle many different things. And then God placed the lines of a song on my heart and it says "To you I give the gifts
Your love has given me. How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?"

2 Thessalonians also talks about never growing tired of doing what is right. It doesn't matter what anyone else is doing, all that matters is that I do what is right. It matters that I continue to do what the Lord has called me to do.

I use the gifts and talents that the Lord has given me because He gave them to me to be used by Him and others for His glory. When I need help, I am to look to the Lord because my help comes from Him. He promises to never leave us nor forsake us. I know these things. Why are they so darn hard to remember when I'm tired and worn down? But how amazing God is to gently remind me that He is there.

Until then......