Peace

I sat in church this morning and realized I had peace. A lot of peace that I'm not totally sure I've had for a while.

While they were taking up the offering this morning, one of the guys on the worship team sang a song (which by the way he was phenomenal!! Like one of the best voices I've heard in a while, he rocked!). He sang a song about waiting on God. The chorus says:
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

And somehow as he sang this song that was awesome in lyrics and in voice, I realized I had peace and I wasn't waiting on anything at the moment. I feel like for so long I've been waiting on answers to different things. The last few months in South Africa I was waiting to see whether I would stay or come home. Then once I got home I was waiting to see where to do my internship. And even since knowing where I was going for the internship I've been waiting to see what I would do after this. I've been waiting on many answers for a long time.

As he sang this morning I thought to myself that usually this kind of song would get me all worked up. Usually this kind of song would have me crying out to God even more about praising Him where I am and waiting on answers. However this morning I found that I wasn't waiting, but yet I had peace.

I have peace with where I am. I have peace in knowing that it's hard, but yet I know this vocation is what God has called me to in life. I have peace in knowing that I think I know where I'm going next year, but it's all still in God's hands. I have peace in focusing on the here and now and not waiting on yet another answer.

And sure there are still things in my life that I'm trusting and waiting on God to do. There will always be those things. But in general and in the big things right now, I have peace. The song this morning was great. I think I may find it on iTunes soon. It's a great song. It's reminding me of the peace I have at the moment and that even when there isn't this kind of peace, God is still God and worthy of my worship! Until then ......