Good morning and greetings from this side of the ocean. I am now sitting in the Atlanta airport waiting for my last flight which will send me home to Louisiana. I'm tired, my ankles are swollen (the long flights get to my ankles), and am jittery. I think this was my most anxious international flight yet. I don't know why I just didn't sleep as well and enjoy it too much. But none the less I made it to America.
I'm still filled with massive mixed emotions about this move. I'm super excited to see my family and friends in America but not as excited as the times I've made this journey home before. I guess it's different when you leave and move home. Yesterday I said farewell to friends, an amazing church, and some of the most incredible people I've ever met.
I honestly don't feel that I am done with ministry in South Africa, so it's not a final goodbye. But still the leaving and not knowing when I will be back there is so hard. I absolutely love South Africa and do long to continue with campus ministry there at some point. Africa needs hope and there is hope for Africa.
I think also I know that I'm not going home to the way I left things. People have graduated. People have moved to other countries. People have gotten married. People have moved. People have had kids. And many relationships have changed. I think that is one of the biggest things that throws a wrench in the moving home thing. The uncertainty of the way things will be from here. In South Africa I knew my job and friends and day to day life. Now I return home to start over. New job. New relationships. New cell phone. New means of transportation. New everything. Even typing now I'm fighting tears again and have a lump in my throat, a knot in my stomach, and a hole in my heart. But I do think this is the right move with God right now and so I keep reminding myself of that. God will take care of me and all of this. He moved home with me this time!
Well that's all for now. I'll update more this week as I start to settle in and start over. Until then ......
2 comments:
Ahh, Ran. I love you so much. I have a knot in my stomach just thinking about you moving back home. You are in my prayers. Let me know how things go when you get settled in.
Love you..
Mir, things are and have changed dramatically in the last few years that's for sure. I think whatever God has in store for you will be what's needed in your new journey home. Be blessed!! Hopefully, I can get to see you later on this month when I come down there for Christmas!
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